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Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me... Anything can happen, child. Anything can be. Shel Silverstein

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Things I've learned.

This is going to have to be a quick post since I need to leave for school soon!

Quick overview of the past few days:
I got my hair cut
I made a raggedy ann costume for halloween
I learned that popping balloons with a razor is harder than one would think
I am really good at black jack.. or just lucky
That waking up from naps is one of the more difficult things to do
I learned how to be a "dazzling" friend
I learned what a "dazzle" is (go look it up!)
I think I did well on my french test
I am always hungry
I love love love Taylor Swift
Gas prices are ridiculous
I love halloween, thanksgiving, and christmas and here it comes!
I learned that life is anything but simple
That I can have a positive impact on someone else
Also learned that sometimes you have to admit that you are wrong
I have big decisions to make!

I'll have a longer post tonight!

over and out.

"Kind words are like honey--sweet to the soul and healthy for the body." Proverbs 16:24

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

one minute late.

I woke up this morning at 9:01, one minute later than I had intended to wake up. I panicked knowing that because I hit snooze, I potentially wouldn’t have woken up in time.

I am currently blogging from IHOP! So this post will probably be a little all over the place sense I am a little distracted.

Anyways I want to start off with a TO DO list:

1. Run daily
2. Read “A Reason for God”
3. Go grocery shopping
4. Clean my room
5. Study/ homework
6. Meet with my advisor

I feel like I have a lot more to do than all of that, but whatever.

I unfortunately didn’t get to start “A Reason for God” today but I will definitely be starting it tomorrow.. after I run, have my meeting, and do all my French homework.

Today in French, I learned how to say “I would like a diet coke.”
“Je voudrais un coca light.” BUT right now, je voudrais un café au lait!

After class, I went straight to work, took a little half nap and then did some preliminary studying for my South East Asia quiz in the morning. I know everything except Timor, Bali, Java, and Sulawesi.

Work today (I work as an intern for the Youth Pastor at Lake Hills Church) was. So. AWESOME. While we were setting up for the kids to get there, Whitney, Caleigh, Josh, and I danced around and even did some Thriller. Then when Caitlin and Hannah got there, we watched some entertaining videos and had some great laughs. I learned that my shirt is actually green and not blue. BUT the most awesome part of the night was worship, Kirk’s talk, and our small group. Somehow God keeps tying everything in my life together to the point of actively and deliberately pursuing Him and His will. We have wrapped up our series “Live Love” tonight. The series was basically about loving others actively, to go out of your way to illustrate to others that they are loved. This deliberate kindness has proven to take hold of our students’ and leaders’ hearts and transformed them into loving to love. Tonight, Kirk talked about how even though we will be moving on to a new series, that Live Love should continue. That even though going out of our way to love on others was something new and was/ is exciting, that we need to push through the transition from new to normal so that eventually it will just become natural. This reminded me about how I just committed yesterday to running and how right now its new and exciting, but soon I will get to the point where I don’t want to do it because its difficult or just a hassle. But if I stay committed and push through that, then eventually running will just become a natural part of my life. Today, I didn’t run because on the program, it is a rest day. I did, though, park extremely far from my classes and walked a good 40 minute round trip from my car to my classes. Tomorrow I have committed to running between getting home from class and going to my meeting. I am going to be running by myself, so I am a little nervous about holding myself accountable but all of this inspiration to take opportunities and figuratively and literally run with them will keep me going. I would really love for running to become a time that I can focus on and spend time with God, enjoy the world he created, and let Him fill me up with drive and strength to just keep going. Day by day, minute by minute. I want the exact same thing for my life. I need to make the commitment to live entirely for Jesus, get off my butt and start each and every day, enjoy it, and let God guide me and fill me up with His strength instead of my own when things undoubtedly will get difficult. My strength will fail every time, but His strength gained through faith and prayer will push me through until its simply natural.

The next thing Kirk talked about was a wonderful metaphor about dreams, sleeping, and the snooze button. Basically it’s natural to have dreams and aspirations. What’s not natural is actually taking action to make them happen. God will take you there as long as you put on your tennis shoes and take the first step and trust Him all the way. Kirk talked about how we can’t put our dreams aside and just go back to sleep.

“Don’t go back to sleep. Don’t roll over and hit snooze.”

“There are consequences”

The consequences don’t really have anything to do with us, but not accomplishing the dreams that Jesus has for us, will prevent all of the awesomeness that could happen through us from coming to fruition.

“Some are content to dream dreams. Some would rather live them.”

“Don’t sleep through your dreams.”

Its time to wake up and place my dreams in the hands of God and commit to having faith to allow Him to lead me, step by step.

My dreams right now:
1. Take any and every opportunity God puts in front of me
2. To always be reading and learning
3. Eat healthy
4. Become a runner
5. Keep up with my blog
6. Overcome my current struggle/ obstacle
7. Be patient with my education and learn to appreciate it again.
8. To keep dreaming..

Here are some quotes/ scriptures that really made me think today:

Jeannie Hampton… “Don’t let life be another word for endurance.”

Caleigh Wilson… “It’s so easy to settle for B’s and coast through school even though you could work a little harder for A’s. The same applies to life; God wants so much more for us to settle for a B life when we could accomplish an A life through Him.”

“Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we don’t give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers.” Galatians 6:7-10

“But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12: 9-10

“I woke up this morning at 9:01, one minute later than I had intended to wake up. I panicked knowing that because I hit snooze, I potentially wouldn’t have woken up in time.” I feel like I woke up from my life one minute late today as well, panicked that I almost let my dreams, Jesus’s dreams, pass me by. You know how when you realize you almost woke up too late, how you are completely awake within a split second, fling your covers off of you and get ready four times as fast as you normally do? Well I hope and pray that’s how we will all awake to chase after Jesus every morning.

Over and Out.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Nobody gets to watch the parade.

I did it! I finished "A Million Miles in a Thousand Days" and you guys, wow, it is beautiful. BUT before I talk about it, I want to first talk about my day! It was so hard for me not to blog all day but now I am so glad that I can just spill everything at once.

My classes were miserable, but not because of the classes themselves, but because of something I was dealing with during and between them. I won't get into details because its not really relevant but basically God is working in my heart on a certain issue and He is still unfolding what direction He wants me to take. Either I had a huge moment of closure or a huge moment of whatever the opposite of closure is. ANYWAYS. After class I went to lunch with my daddy which I always love doing. He took me to Gumbo's downtown and we talked about business and life and God and basically just figuring out who I am. Awesome.

Then, I made the best decision ever to go to Book People. I spent a good hour and a half there pouring over books and reviews and summaries trying to figure out exactly what my next read should be. Before I discuss my purchases, I would like to digress a bit. I cannot express how much I love reading and how much I miss it. I can't even comprehend why I stopped. It is by far one of the most comforting, beautiful, and inspiring activities I have ever done. After finishing my book, I am so inspired and fired up about life and Jesus. But anyways, here's what came home with me from Book People.

I got a pack of 3 little notebooks that resemble moleskins but are paper covered (and cheaper!). They are now my inspiration journals to put quotes from books I'm reading or just anything that strikes my fancy at any given time!

Next, I got this book that is called "Manifesto, an Anonymous Novel." It intrigued me because its a blank cover, with no title, no author, no chapters, no nothing but raw story. I don't even know what its about... yet.

My final purchase was "A Reason for God." This was a suggestion from my boss/ friend and also something that stimulated quite a few meaningful discussions about Jesus recently. This will be my next book; hopefully I can start it tomorrow!

The last book in the picture is actually the one I finished tonight (if you can't tell by the title!)

Then, after I got home from Book People, it was almost time to go running with Caleigh, Whitney, and DeAnn. Something I have been meaning to do, basically always, but I have rarely had to motivation, conviction, and commitment to do so. Whitney and I committed to the opportunity last night and I can not be more thankful. The run was not easy, but it also wasn't that difficult either. I felt comfortable and within my abilities the entire 45 minutes/ 3 miles! I was left invigorated and excited to continue on the program. I say this very very rarely, but I am so proud of myself!

After the run, we grabbed a Jamba Juice and I came home to read!

SO about the book! I don't want to delve in to deep because I want everyone to read it! Its basically a book about how to live a great story. It has left so much conviction and desire/ passion for Jesus in my heart, I could about explode! (If you couldn't tell that already by my excess of exclamation marks!!!) The meaning gleaned from this book will obviously be slightly different for everyone and also will change over time with its application to life but as of right now, I believe that its about actively and deliberately pursuing opportunities and letting God change my life through them. There will be extremely difficult and painful times in each and every opportunity but that it what changes you the most and what makes those changes so beautiful. I would love to share how it applies specifically to my life, but I simply haven't had the chance to apply it yet. So for now, I want to leave you guys with all of the quotes that really stayed with me (and are written in my inspiration journal) and hopefully that will inspire you to grab the book.

"Good stories don't happen by accident."

"No girl who plays the role of a hero dates a guy who uses her. She knows who she is. She just forgot for a little while."

"Joy costs pain."

"The character has to jump into the story, into the discomfort and the fear, otherwise the story will never happen."

"Progress, no matter how slow is all that matters."

"If you want to know what a person's story is about, just ask them what they want."

"It made me think about the hard lives so many people have had, the sacrifices they've endured, and how those people will see heaven differently from those of us who have had easier lives."

"You become like the people you interact with. And if your friends are leading boring stories, than you probably are too."

"Your story is what gives you character."

"We shouldn't be afraid to embrace whimsy."

"The reward you get from a story is always less than you had thought it would be, and the work is harder than you imagined. The point of the story is never about the ending, remember."

"You didn't think joy could change a person, did you? Joy is what you feel when the conflict is over. But its conflict that changes a person."

"There is no conflict man can endure that will not produce a blessing."

"You can't go on without a story any longer than you can read a book about nothing."

"She said she had married a guy, and he was just a guy. He wasn't going to make all her problems go away, because he was just a guy. And that freed her to really love him as a guy, not as an ultimate problem solver."

"When you stop expecting people to be perfect, you can like them for who they are. And when you stop expecting material possessions to complete you, you'd be surprised at how much pleasure you get from material possessions. And when you stop expecting God to end all your troubled, you'd be surprised how much you like spending time with God."

"Good stories contain memorable scenes."

"I think God wanted us to build altars for our own sake, something that would help us remember, something we could look back on and remember the time when we were rescued and remember the time when we were given grace... We have to force ourselves to create these scenes. We have to get up off the couch and turn the telvision off, we have to blow up innertubes and head to the river. We have to write the poem and deliver it in person. We have to pull the car off the road and hike to the top of the hill. We have to put on our suits, we have to dance at weddings. We have to make altars."

"It wasn't necessary to win for the story to be great, it was only necessary to sacrifice everything."

"A good storyteller doesn't just tell a better story, though. He invites other people into the story with him, giving them a better story, too."

"Nobody gets to watch the parade."

over and out.


I wanted to finish reading Don Miller's "A Million Miles in a Thousand Years" last night andddd I did not. So I am not allowing myself to post again until I have finished. But first I have classes and a run this afternoon to get through! I will hopefully be posting about finishing it soon!

over and out

Monday, October 18, 2010

ma vie est moyenne

Je veux lire au lieu d'étudier le français.



Song of Solomon 87
Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot wash it away.

1 Peter 4:8
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins

1 John 3:18
Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth

Ephesians 5:25
Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her

Genesis 29:20
So Jacob worked seven years to pay for Rachel. But his love for her was so strong that it seemed to him but a few days.

Proverbs 3:3
Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart

1 Corinthians 16:14
Do everything in love.

1 Corinthians 13:6-13
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.


Revelation 21:4
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.


Romans 12:2
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is -- his good, pleasing, and perfect will.

favorite things.

Romans 15:4-5
And the scriptures were written to teach and encourage us by giving us hope. God is the one who makes us patient and cheerful . Pray that he will help you live at peace with each other , as you follow Christ.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Fresh Start

I decided to go back and read my blog entries from when I was a senior in high school. During the process of reading the posts prior to this one, I realized how much I have given up since then. I used to read a new book every few days; I kept a journal of every quote in those books that inspired me. I used that inspiration to write poems, create art, and just think on a deeper level than I do now. College is so much more exhausting than I ever thought it could be. If I am not in class, doing homework, or working, I am sleeping or something equally idle because my brain just hurts. I so desperately want to be true to myself and delve back into everything I am so passionate about. I so desperately want to chase Jesus as hard as I possibly can but I feel like I am simply stuck. I feel like I am angry with school for consuming me and holding me back; I am angry with my education, something I am usually so incredibly passionate about. I need inspiration and I can feel Jesus trying to inspire me. Its time for me to just let go and stop trying to be in control of my life. Its time to let Jesus take over. Let Him heat back up the passion in my heart that has somehow chilled to room temperature in the past year and a half. Its time to let go of my anxieties, my worries, my plans for.. well everything. If I have learned anything, even in the past week, is that the life you plan for yourself, is almost never the life Jesus has in mind. He will flip everything completely upside down with the most seemingly inconvenient timing ever. But, it was perfect timing; I was comfortable being mediocre and that is simply not okay. Where I am going, I have no idea, but I know its somewhere great.

Matthew 6:31-34 (The Message)

30-33"If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I'm trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.

34"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes."

over and out